Monday, July 20, 2015

AUTHOR INTERVIEW: Robert Uttaro

An interview with Robert Uttaro, author of To the Survivors, a book about the author's journeys as a rape crisis counselor.

 

Hi! Welcome to Zigzag Timeline. Can you tell us about your background as an author?

I am a first time author who published my debut book To the Survivors.  Currently, I am writing a second book and teaching a writing course to high school sophomores.

What got you into writing?

I did not consider myself a writer and never once tried to write a book until the experience of an intensely vivid dream one morning changed my life. I woke up from this dream and said, “I have to write a book.” I interpreted this dream as a vision from God. I prayed to God, moved from the bed to the computer, opened up Microsoft Word, and continued to pray. That is how To the Survivors began. In other words, God inspired me to become a writer.

What was the first idea you had for your book, and how did the story grow from there?

As I described in my last answer, the idea to write To the Survivors came about through a dream. I knew two things in that moment. First, I knew that Jesus would be in the book. Second, I knew there would be multiple survivor stories from women and men who have been raped and sexually assaulted showing their pain and recovery. To the Survivors ultimately grew when I met more survivors who wanted to share their stories.

Among your characters, who's your favorite? Could you please describe him/her?

That is hard to answer because To the Survivors is non-fiction and has many different people in it who have shared deeply vulnerable, painful, and inspirational stories. There are so many great people in the book like Jim, Alexis, Chris, Jenee and others, but I recommend you read for yourself and interpret how you interpret.

What's your favorite scene from your novel? Could you please describe it?

Again, that is really hard to answer because To the Survivors deals with so many compelling issues. I don’t think I can choose a favorite scene, but I will choose two parts that I love from the “Chris” and “Jenee” chapters. A big part of To the Survivors is helping people understand that they are not alone in this world and that they can overcome anything, no matter how painful their experiences may be. In the “Chris” chapter, Chis says,

The abuse was something that was done to me. It doesn’t speak to my character. Releasing that shame allowed me to feel like I belonged in the world more. That felt empowering. Being around other people. Being around supportive people. Being around people who are willing to share. I began to see the universality of the effects that this abuse has.
And then you realize that this clearly is not about me. This cannot be about my character. There are thirty men in this room of all different sorts coming from all different walks of life who had this singular experience, and because of this have this very clear set of results and symptoms in their life. You begin to see that this cannot be just me. The power of that is really helpful in removing some of the shame and stepping into one’s power. 

Jenee’s chapter is also very powerful. She tells us about her own story and shares her hopes and prayers for humanity. Jenee says, “Any support we can give children in particular to not be ashamed and know they will be believed and loved desperately if they have something to share, we must. We must give each other that support.”

Jenee closes by saying, “Make peace with all people if you can, and especially, make peace with yourself. Always know there are friends somewhere rooting for you. There are people you don’t know, always praying for you and lifting you before God.”

What's your favorite part of writing? Plotting? Describing scenes? Dialogue?

I love writing to speak about truth. I also love to ignite thoughts and emotions, to teach and comfort people.  As a writer, I think it’s important to make people think and feel.

How long does it take you to write a book? Do you have a writing process, or do you wing it?

To the Survivors took me a little under three years to write. My writing process is always accompanied with music, meditation or prayer.

What is it about the genre you chose that appeals to you?

For me, non-fiction is so important to write about and read because it deals with real people in real life situations. Our lives are valuable and everyone has a story. For me, the best way to convey certain truths about ourselves and to learn from others in terms of writing is through non-fiction.

Are there any books or writers that have had particular influence on you?

Musicians have always had more of an influence on me than books or writers. However, one author who has had a strongly positive influence on me is Immaculee  Iligabiza.

Did you ever surprise yourself when you were writing your book? Characters who took on lives of their own? Plot elements that took unexpected turns?

One thing that surprised me was just learning about how young some children are when they become sexually abused. It’s one thing to hear of a story in the news, but to meet another person and listen to him or her disclose their childhood trauma of being raped or molested as a child is very sad and infuriating. I do not have adequate language to fully describe how horrible it is. However, I was able to witness the survivors’ bravery, strength and perseverance through their sharing. I learned what has helped various individuals in their lives and how they have grown from these traumatic experiences. A great deal of these insights are evident throughout To the Survivors and continue to serve as inspiration for me and hopefully every person who reads the book.

Thanks for stopping by!

ABOUT ROBERT

Robert Uttaro is in his eighth year of working and volunteering as a rape crisis counselor, public speaker and community educator. Inspired by his undergraduate studies in Criminal Justice, he continues to embrace a life-long commitment to activism and advocacy for survivors of sexual violence. Serving as a counselor, Uttaro supports rape survivors and their significant others through various legal and case management issues. He also facilitates workshops aimed at education, prevention and exposure of the realities of sexual violence. Uttaro is currently touring many universities and high schools throughout Massachusetts.

ABOUT THE BOOK

To the Survivors is a deeply-moving, empowering, and brutally honest book about one man’s journey as a rape crisis counselor combined with true stories of sexual violence shared by real survivors in their own words. Gently and beautifully constructed, To the Survivors is moving, tender, sharp, and piercingly true all at once. The reader will encounter uncensored written stories, poems, and interviews shared by women, men, and one transgendered person who have been raped and sexually assaulted. The impact of this work is far reaching – it is multi-cultural, multi-generational, and fully expansive in its ability to reach people's hearts and minds around this critical human issue. Robert Uttaro believes anyone can benefit from the words in these pages; rape survivor or not.


"Rape counselor Uttaro draws upon his years of experience to warn that sexual abuse is far more prevalent than most people suspect, and provides a moving series of survivor stories. Uttaro persuasively argues that each survivor's story is unique—and this militates one-size-fits-all advice. The surprising revelations of the survivors Uttaro interviews corroborate his claim that justice is an individual concept that depends on what redress survivors seek. Uttaro's assurances that survivors are not defined by sexual abuse offer the possibility of a positive resolution. This book is both informative for the general public and supportive for those who have suffered sexual abuse. It is hard to imagine that members of either group will not gain from reading it."

- PUBLISHERS WEEKLY (starred review)





Saturday, July 18, 2015

COVER REVEAL: My very own Firedragon Rising!

Hey everyone! Here's the cover for FIREDRAGON RISING, the second FIREDRAGON novella! Love how stark and haunting designer Alivia Anders made it. The novella will be released in a few weeks by Glass House Press! Check it out...



Sinister plots. An underground rebellion. And a treacherous road filled with monsters and enemies unknown.

It's been three months since Aurelia survived the International Challenge—an elite monster-fighting competition. And the Triumvirate has been keeping a close eye on her ever since … as if they expect her to cause them more trouble.

They’re right. 

Now that she knows about the underground revolution—and the dark secrets of her own past—Aurelia is hell-bent on escaping the government’s watchful gaze and joining the rebels. Finally, she’s found a cause worth fighting for. A way for her kind, the Norms, to take back their freedom.

Then, when she overhears a Triumvirate official’s conversation, she learns that it’s even worse than she realized. The government knows about the rebels, and the rebellion. They’re searching for people who sympathize with the cause. And they’re coming after her next. 

Suddenly the time for dreaming about the rebellion is over. Aurelia must make contact with the rebels and plot a quick escape … before the Triumvirate has a chance to capture her. But government forces and miles of monster-filled wilderness stand between her and the rebel headquarters, and dangers she never imagined lurk in the shadows. 

Before she can fight for the freedom of her people, she must achieve her own—or die trying.


And here are the two Firedragon covers side-by-side...


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Wednesday, July 15, 2015

A writerly case of Empty Nest Syndrome

So, I've written a trilogy. Virtual Shadows is out now, and the Jane Colt trilogy is done. Wait... what?

There was a time when I thought I might split the third Jane Colt novel into two installments, since I wasn't sure if all the story lines I had in mind would fit into a single book of a reasonable size. I had reason to worry... the first draft turned out to be 157,000 words long. I cut it down to 124,000... that's the power of killing your darlings!


Look at that reasonably sized spine! My editing shears have superpowers.
The Books That Almost Were would have been titled Virtual Expanses and Simulated Shadows. I eventually decided to keep them as one book (smashing the titles together to form Virtual Shadows) for two reasons: the first being that when I tried splitting up the two story lines, there wasn't enough material for either to be its own novel. This was a painful exercise in surgically removing plot points, attempting to outline a new novel using them, searching desperately for additional material to fluff things up, and bashing my head against the wall. And the second was that I felt ready to move on.

It was a really, really weird feeling. From the moment I started scribbling brainstorms for a space adventure in 2011 (out of sheer boredom at the office after I figured out how to make Excel do my job for me), Jane Colt has been a part of my daily life. I was always plotting, writing, brainstorming future books, editing, researching, etc. etc. etc. For years, I couldn't imagine not working on some aspect of that universe. Even had ideas for spinoff novellas and whatnot. But in late 2014, with five other active projects I was in the thick of, something hit me: I wanted to finish something. I had this blank spot on my wall next to the posters for Artificial Absolutes and Synthetic Illusions, and I suddenly couldn't stand it anymore. I needed to fill that empty space, to no longer have my series be incomplete.


My old Facebook cover pic... It's INCOMPLETE *twitch twitch*
I think it's partially just because of who I am. I get immense satisfaction out of getting shit done. It's that feeling when you've completed something you've been working on... whether it's turning in that huge school project, or finally launching that new brand, or going on that trip you've been planning for months. Life is never finished until you're dead (and even then, there will always be threads left dangling), but along the way, you can tie a bow on a few smaller things and just get the feeling of having concluded something. 

So I wrote Virtual Shadows and chose to self-publish it so I'd have ultimate control over my conclusion (though I hired the same team that published the other two... really the only difference was who was paying the bills). And so I'd get it out in time for GenCon this year (by the time I felt my book was ready for an editor's eyes, GenCon was only four months away). The whole time I was working on it, I kept thinking, "I can't wait to be done." Not because I wasn't having fun working on it, but because I wanted the rush of, "Yes! I finished something!"


My current Facebook cover pic... Ah... that's better...

Wellp, I'm there now. Virtual Shadows is formatted and uploaded, and all that's left to do now is the marketing part (which never ends, so I guess I'm not actually done-done). On the one hand, I do get a kick out of being able to say "Hey look! I completed a trilogy!" On the other hand... not having something Jane Colt-related to be writing/plotting/editing is WEIRD. And it's giving me a weird writerly case of Empty Nest Syndrome.


Four years may be nothing in the grand scheme of things, but to me, it might as well have been a lifetime. In that time, I've moved three times, held three different jobs, and bought my first car. Life is always tumultuous, and funnily enough, Jane Colt was my constant. Even as I worked on other things, her series was always in the back of my mind. I always had something related to her books I needed to do.

Not anymore.

I've forgotten how to not be working on something Jane-related. So even though I'm now done, I still feel like there's something I should be doing. It's a confusingly empty feeling. I mean, finishing is a good thing. But I kind of miss working on this trilogy now that it's done. I've even taking to looking through the book equivalent of baby pictures... Cover drafts and old notes and whatnot.

Blast from the past: Behold the temp cover from when Artificial Absolutes was on Authonomy as Astral Sea: The Pandora Project, and I was trying to hide my first name because... reasons.
I finally moved the Jane Colt project folder off my desktop to make room for my next WIP project folder and put it in a folder called "Completed Projects," along with the Brave New Girls folder. It's been staring at me from my desktop for four years, and now it's gone. Part of me still doesn't comprehend this. But the fact is, I'm done with that series. Finished. Nothing left to write.

And that's just WEIRD.


What is this alien thing? WHAT IS IT???

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Jane Colt trilogy book trailer!

Virtual Shadows, the third and final installment of the Jane Colt trilogy, is out in three days! And because I'm on something of a Jane Colt kick, I made a book trailer for the trilogy... check it out...



Wednesday, July 8, 2015

BOOK REVIEW: Blood in the Water / Tash McAdam

TITLE: Blood in the Water (Warp Weavers)
AUTHOR: Tash McAdam
PUBLISHER: Glass House Press
AVAILABILITY: Barnes & Noble


GENRE
Young Adult - Science Fantasy

REVIEW
Rips between our dimension and others have always threatened Earth. Called warps, they allow demons and monsters from other worlds to enter ours. The Protectorate guards the world against them, sending warriors out to fight the creatures and weavers out to seal the breaches before more can come through. Then, others with special abilities wipe the memories of the populace, so at the end of the day, the people are safe and none the wiser.

Blood in the Water follows teenaged weaver Hallie on a mission more dangerous than anything she could have imagined. When dangerous Sea Serpents appear through multiple warps in the Thames, Hallie must team up with a new partner to seal the breaches to prevent catastrophe.

Narrated in Hallie's clever and irreverent voice, Blood in the Water  is a fast-paced, action-packed superhero-style science fantasy adventure full of imagination and thrills. There's not a still moment in this entire novella - every page is filled with exciting new information about this richly developed world or breathtaking action sequences and battle scenes. I finished reading this story in next to no time at all, since each scene pulls you into the next until you find yourself flipping through half the novella when you meant to read just one chapter.

Genre-wise, Blood in the Water, like most superhero stories, walks the line between science fiction and fantasy. So, science fantasy. The warps and the powers and the monsters all feel very fantasy-ish, but the characters also talk about dimensional physics and use sci-fi style tech. So there you go: science fantasy.

Hallie is an easily likable character, with her bright energy and relatable flaws. Her sarcastic quips are fun to read, yet at the same time, she can be vulnerable too. When the emergency alarms go off, she's in way over her head, and her uncertainty adds suspense to the story. Oh, and she gets bonus points for being a diverse protagonist who both shares a kiss with her best friend/possible girlfriend Cam and admires the dudely six pack on her dreadlocked partner's abs.

The thing about diverse fiction is that they're stories first, and whichever underrepresented minority they cast a much-needed spotlight on, it's beside the point when you're reading. The best thing about Blood in the Water's diverse cast is it doesn't feel like it's pushing any kind of agenda. They're characters in a fantasy universe out to save the world, and, oh, by the way, they're not necessarily straight or white.

In case it's not clear by now, I love, love, loved this novella. In fact, I've loved everything I've ever read by Tash McAdam (disclosure: Tash and I share a publisher, and I loved the work so much I published one of Tash's stories in the anthology I edited). Tash has a way of packing stories with explosive action and high stakes, with characters that are both sympathetic and relatable. They remind me of the graphic novels and superhero comics I used to devour, except even better because prose allows your imagination to fill in the pictures. Blood in the Water is no different, and I can't wait to read more about the Warp Wavers universe.

ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Tash McAdam’s first writing experience (a collaborative effort) came at the age of eight, and included passing floppy discs back and forth with a best friend at swimming lessons. Since then, Tash has spent time falling in streams, out of trees, learning to juggle, dreaming about zombies, dancing, painting, learning Karate, becoming a punk rock pianist, and of course, writing.

Tash is a teacher in real life, but dreams of being a full-time writer, and living a life of never-ending travel. Though born in the hilly sheepland of Wales, Tash has lived in South Korea and Chile and now calls Vancouver, Canada home.

SLAM, a novella in The Psionics, is Tash’s first published work. Maelstrom, the full length novel will be out in June. Visit the website or facebook for news, gossip, and random tidbits about Tash’s adventures.

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Thrillers: Why I write them

by John L. DeBoer
Author of Skeleton Run

Thrillers are what I most like to read, so naturally it was the genre I chose when I first started writing novels. They come in all shapes and sizes: legal, medical, psychological, political, crime, tales of revenge, war, even science fiction. I’ve written books containing all of those themes. As the classification implies, these stories aim to thrill the reader through action, suspense, and unexpected twists and turns.

What appeals to me in the genre is the ability to get into the heads, and show the actions of, both sides of the story’s main conflict. This is not possible, for the most part, in a true mystery, another genre I do read and enjoy. In a thriller, unlike the typical mystery, the bad guy is known, or at least suspected – sometimes wrongly! – and the plot revolves around how the protagonist will deal with that threat. For me, this increases suspense, rather than blunting it, as the reader can see what the two forces are up to while neither one knows what the other is doing. Nelson DeMille, one of my favorite authors, does this so well in his last few books with his John Corey character combating terrorists.

A blurring of these definitions occurs, of course, quite often. There are thrillers that are also mysteries – Lee Childs’ Jack Reacher stories and Harlan Coben’s books are good examples. Fun reads all, but to me, I’d rather not wait until the end of the book for the explanation of what had gone on in the previous 400 pages! Because so often this is a letdown. I usually have some element of mystery in my novels, but I prefer the end of the story to be the dramatic and exciting resolution of the conflict, not just an answer to the question that has been bugging the protagonist – and the reader – the entire book.

ABOUT THE BOOK


Twenty years ago, four teenage boys left a baby behind in a crushed car after they caused the tragic accident that took the mother’s life. Ever since, they’ve guarded the secret that would’ve ruined their lives and destroyed their future careers. But when one of them succumbs to illness, a blackmailer makes contact, and the survivors realize that, somehow, someone else knows. Now, everything that matters to them is at stake.

Las Vegas billionaire Wendell Logan is pursuing the role of political kingmaker, and he’s selected his unsuspecting king: Alan Granger, governor of Pennsylvania. Granger confesses his closet skeleton to Logan, but the tycoon has invested too much time and money into Granger’s future presidential campaign to let him and his old friends endanger Logan’s power play.
It’s time to run.


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ABOUT THE AUTHOR

After graduating from the University of Vermont College of Medicine, John L. DeBoer, M.D., F.A.C.S. completed his surgical training in the U.S. Army and then spent three years in the Medical Corps as a general surgeon. Thirty years of private practice later, he retired to begin a new career as a writer.

When not creating new plot lines for his novels, Dr. DeBoer pursues his interests in cooking, the cinema, and the amazing cosmos. He’s an avid tennis player, and his yet-to-be-fulfilled goal is to achieve a level of mediocrity in the frustrating game of golf.

The father of two grown sons, he lives with his wife in North Carolina.



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Wednesday, July 1, 2015

That moment when you realize you should've started in Chapter 15

Yeah, yeah, my bookshelf's a mess...
They say that in order to be a writer, you've got to be a reader. That's true for a number of reasons, one of which is that only through reading can you see what works in storytelling. Of course, what works for one person may not work for another, but at least you should be writing something that works for you. Because if you wouldn't read it yourself, why would anyone else? Sounds like such a simple concept, but I think a lot of writers, when starting out, lose sight of that. I know I did.

I must confess, I don't keep track of what I've written here before, so it's possible this post is something of a repeat (I also have the worst memory, which doesn't help). But it's a topic that's been on my mind again recently, and it's one that holds true across time, so I don't mind talking about it again.

Here's the thing: contemporary genre readers are impatient. I can't speak for literary fiction because most of my time is spent consuming fluff, so maybe the rules are different there, but I'm pretty sure even those who enjoy slower pacing want to know right away what the book's all about. Which often means starting at someplace not the beginning.

What is a beginning anyway? The answer is complicated. Often, what you see on Page One is not the actual beginning of the story. Take Harry Potter for instance. The first thing we see is Baby Harry, orphaned by a dark wizard, being dropped off at his aunt's. But you could argue that the story itself began long before that, with Voldemort's initial rise to power and the battle that ensued. Instead of spending pages and pages explaining the lead-up though, J.K. Rowling drops us right into Harry's tale, then skips over the part about him growing up and goes straight into magic invading his humdrum life. Because that's what we, the readers, want to see.
I don't actually write with a pen, but it was prettier than a laptop

I was recently beta-reading a book that had some lovely background chapters at the beginning, talking about the protagonist's boring life. But though the words were very well written, the whole time I was wondering, "So what?" Some backstory upfront is necessary, but much can be sprinkled along as they become relevant.

I made the mistake of starting too early back when I was writing Synthetic Illusions, which may also explain why it took me so many tries to get it right. I knew what I wanted to happen and developed an outline based on that. Then, I wrote the first 30,000 words. But it was a struggle, a pain, and I kept procrastinating. Eventually, I realized that the reason I couldn't move forward with writing was because I would have hated to read the book I was creating. So I reworked the plot, outlined it in order, and tried again. Another 30,000 words later, each of which was beaten out of my unwilling fingers by sheer stubbornness, I stopped again. This time, I liked the plot, but still hated reading it. It took me a while to realize it was because things were just going too slowly for my impatient brain. Everything was building and building and building, but the actual exciting stuff wasn't to start until later. Much, much later. As in, Chapter 15 of what I'd plotted.

Well, damn. Had to start over again. But this time, I actually liked what I was writing. I was excited about what was happening, and I got to the fun parts (well, fun for me – not so much for the characters) right away. As for the stuff that happened in the first 15 chapters? Some was told through flashbacks when they became relevant. Some was mentioned offhand because while the facts were needed, the details were not. And some would have been transition stuff anyway and so it just got scrapped. Basically, I took the highlights reel of the backstory and sprinkled it into the main story.

I love how Synthetic Illusions turned out, but it wasn't easy admitting that I had to scrap a whole novel's worth of words to get there. Sometimes, it's tempting to just press on and press on, refusing to believe there's something fundamentally wrong with your book. But the only way to improve is to admit when things aren't working, even though that means a lot of extra work.

Well, it got written.
I wish I could say that I learned my lesson from Synthetic Illusions and knew better than to start with too much background again, but alas, it's not true. It happened again when I was drafting Windborn (currently under contract with Glass House Press), though at least this time, I realized I should have started in Chapter 3. Bit better than Chapter 15. And only had to scrap 10,000 words. Small victories!

One of the hardest things about being a writer is disconnecting yourself from your book baby and reading it as you would read anything else. But if you can, your gut reaction is always right. If you feel like it's starting too slowly, then it's starting too slowly. If you hate the protagonist, then there's something wrong with the protagonist (this happened to me as well). Because in order for readers to believe in your book, you have to believe in it too.

Even if it means starting over, again and again, in order to get there.